wp-1452140291807.jpgHey hey! I finally stopped being scared and got my ass to CrossFit this morning! Considering I spent the fall sitting and editing pictures and not working out, my body was not used to being tested and my conditioning was hard to find. But I was there, I kept up with the others and I didn’t die!!

I have to say my eating has been a lot better this week and I am fucking proud of myself for it! There has been temptation and I have ignored it. I pre-made food for the week and I am loving it! The pre-made meals mean I have time to do my photography work and workout, which is what I wanted in the first place.

And to cap everything off, I went for my mile walk this afternoon in the rain because I didn’t want to lose a day on my 90 miles in 90 days. At the start of the walk I felt the inclination to jog, but I reigned it in because I had done crossfit this morning and I didn’t want to kill myself.

Hopefully tomorrow won’t be super sucky for my body, but uh, it probably will be.

90 Miles in 90 Days Session 8

wp-1451877994274.jpgYup, I am doing it again. I made the decision on the very last day to sign p at 11:50pm. Nothing like time running out and feeling tired of not moving my ass to make me sign up for something I thought I wouldn’t do again. This is going to be walking with the hope that by February I might take a stab of light jogging. Guys, my conditioning is nonexistent. It’s crazy!! My thighs are sore from walking! I am humbled and just moving on. Tomorrow: I return to Crossfit and I am just going to do what I can, I have no illusions of what I can do. But it’s ok. I have mini-goals. Like not being winded as much in 3 weeks.wp-1451877981903.png
Anyhoo, I have been recording what I am eating, but it hasn’t been enough and I am aware. I have gone through my new cookbook Thug Kitchen, and I plan on making some delicious food tomorrow. I might even take pictures, who knows? I might have a new recipe review? WHAT! Yup. Soak it in people, soak it in.

P.S. My name on My Fitness Pal is Xine_23 in case you want to track food with me. I am a riveting person to watch eat 😉


Checking In

So I reactivated my online food diary at My Fitness Pal {I cannot believe I remember the password! Go brain!!} and logged my food today. Go me!! Today the cabinets were cleaned out, so there was nothing to eat but real food.


I also made a turkey shepherds pie, which is more than I normally do. Tomorrow: I make my egg casserole for breakfasts!!


New goal, after looking at today’s breakdown of food: eat more protein!

Monday: working out is going to happen. For reals.

And if you want to see my first blog on my photography website about me being a dork, you can find it here.

Merry Christmas!

535142_934285263325227_7273280018365828443_nSo, I haven’t written here since August. Looking back, I have to say that 2015 was rough mentally on me for food and exercise. I haven’t been working out. I have had a lot of amazing opportunities this year with photography and it has kept me busy and exhausted. Working at 4:30am and then doing a ton of photography stuff after has left me drained. It’s not meant to be an excuse, I recognize that I could be working out and I have made the choice not to.

I feel like I am coming out of the tunnel from 2015, I am seeing things clearly. I miss eating clean and working out but I need balance. 2014 it was a huge focus and took up a ton of time. I need to be invested to a point, but not to the point where it is all I do or think about.

I need to accountable for this stuff, so my one goal for 2016 is to blog here with what I am eating and if I worked out. That’s it. I encourage my readers to comment if I haven’t written here in 3 or 4 days. Call me out.

In other news, my photography is growing and going in an exciting direction! Check out my new website, it’s kind of gorgeous:


have-you-seen-the-new-movie-constipated-pun-dogReally? I am naming my blog post “constipated”?? Yeah, this weekend kind of sucked. I woke up Saturday with a pained belly and the inability to poop. It was from out of nowhere! I have never been constipated in my life, so I was kind of shell shocked. And in mild pain. I tried to think–what had I eaten to bring this on? Nothing out of the ordinary! I am still eating tons of veggies and protein and my water intake has increased since it has been so hot. I didn’t want to aggravate the situation so I basically ate applesauce, fig newtons (like 2), protein shakes and spinach salads over the weekend. As of last night things started getting better and it has followed to this morning. I am hopeful that with an increase in fruit intake and more working out this week, everything will kind of work itself out.

In other news, I have been to crossfit 3 times a week two weeks in a row and I have been walking like a cowboy ever since! It’s funny how I forgot how to walk after doing tons of wall balls and thrusters. This week I plan on going 4 times, but it all depends how much my body hurts {in a bad way}. I always listen and never push anymore!

I see my nutritionist tomorrow and I am hoping it’s another good visit. We shall see!

Summer = Hibernation

its-too-hotIt’s odd that I would have a title like this, but I need to express how fucking hot it has been here in Texas this summer. We went an entire month {after the flooding} without rain. The temperature climbed to over 100 degrees plus the humidex, meaning each day felt like it was 115 degrees. It has been brutal. I would be lying if I said that I still worked out consistently and just adapted to the heat. I have been inconsistent. I have been working a lot of early mornings and working out anytime after 9am is just too hot for me, so I have been hibernating in the air conditioning. It has just been in the past two weeks where I have been back to crossfit three times a week, and boy have I been sore!! I did a WOD Friday where it was a 25 AMRAP of 200m run, 40 wall balls, 200m run, 20 kb swings, 200m run and 10 burpees. I did 2 rounds. When I say that I had trouble sitting to pee, it was no joke. I am hoping that by this week my body might be protesting so badly.

Eating has been pretty good, until Robert’s birthday hit last weekend. I ate so poorly I felt nauseated for a full day and barely ate. In the past I have felt bloated and gross but never so bad that I entirely lost my appetite. I said to my husband that for the future I don’t mind the extra work, but from here on out we make dinner and host people for birthday’s–no more eating out. I have said in the past it’s hard for me, but now it’s getting physically impossible for me.

In other news, I have lost 15lbs of fat since starting working the nutritionist, which is great. I am also mixing it up in the kitchen more, especially since coming back from New York City. I was inspired there on the food tour, and now I am playing with different dishes, while keeping the fat low and the protein high.

I am hoping with this “cold front” that we are having this week, it might stick around a bit and that I will be able to workout more, as I will have the flexibility to do so. If the temps do go back up, I will hibernate until things drop a little. And if I lose weight slower because of this, I am ok with that.

Food, Airrosti & PR’s

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This bad boy is my morning snack in-between breakfast and lunch. Surprisingly good!!

I wrote half this blog 2 months ago and then life happened and I just didn’t get here. So now I have even more to report! My last post discussed how all these changes were coming and now I have implemented them and things are getting better.

Nutrition–this is going to be a lot to talk about, so buckle in. So even though I had changed my eating after seeing Frances at the end of 2014, things still weren’t clicking. What I learned in this meeting is that I am still starving myself, which is why I crave sweets in the afternoon and evenings. This is something that was reiterated in my 2nd meeting with my nutritionist. Every meal I need some form of carb–whether it is sweet potato {yuck} or rice or beans. This is something that Whole 30 was adamantly against, but I have to say that since I have introduced carbs back into my diet on a consistent basis, I do not crave sugar the way I used to. I am still not eating enough of the carbs {I am working on it!!} according to my nutritionist after she read my food journal. Another thing, I need to increase the amount of protein I eat and that my protein needed to be lower in fat. It made me realize I was eating a lot of pork and beef {basically paleo staples} and I needed to eat more turkey and fish. I am not the biggest fan of fish, so I have been consuming shrimp and tuna.

I am sure a braver person would discuss what their fat percentage is but I am not that person. I will say it isn’t as high as I thought it was going to be and I have a goal of losing half of it. I lost 3.5% of it in the past two months–which translates to 10 lbs in body fat loss. How that translates to overall body weight, I don’t know. I asked the nutritionist not to tell me how much I weigh, as I hate knowing that and I am already upset enough about how much I have gained and where I was when all this started. It feels like a slap to the face considering how much I have changed my eating in the past few years. I am hoping I am finally on the right track, it feels like I am on the right track. Clothes are fitting better {or are baggier} and it is nice to feel this way again.

wpid-wp-1434333622476.jpegAirrosti–I saw her three times two months ago. The first visit was plain torturous. She worked on my butt, my lower back and my hip. The pressure she put on my hips felt like a truck was sitting on them. I cursed, I cried, and suffered. I left bruised and with homework–to work on rolling my body 3 times a day and putting a smal ball on the inside of my hip and pressing it in there. The second visit was much the same with more homework given out. The third visit was a good day–me doing the homework made it so that it was my last visit–my back hump was almost gone when she put the same pressure on my hips it did not feel like a truck was on them. I left with homework to do everyday–working on the strength of my core and to roll my entire body everyday, regardless if I do Crossfit. I would like to say I have been the model patient in this area, but that would be a lie. I roll after working out, but not on the days I don’t.

prsPR’s–So I have been inconsistent with crossfit for a while. Since I dropped that barbell on my lower back. It’s been hard getting back and trusting my body, and part of that is an excuse and I own it. I am working on my mental game right now. That being said, I have had some PR’s recently and it’s been encouraging!! I went up 20# on my front squat and 25# on my back squat in April–so now I can do 155# for my front and 165# for my back, and I probably could add 5 to 10 pounds to those. Again, I was nervous, didn’t trust my body and didn’t fully push it. But those were still hard. This past week I did 3 sets of 3 thruster and I got to 85#, which is no joke!! I also have done Fran recently and Diane, and both I could have gone heavier.

Now I want to be consistent. I want to go three times a week and be a little heavier in my weight. And I want to roll everyday. My body is hanging in there, feeling strong, rebounding. It’s time to treat it like that.

Thanks for listening!! I know it’s been a while–I never stopped, I just had a ton of life things get in the way.