Food, Airrosti & PR’s

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This bad boy is my morning snack in-between breakfast and lunch. Surprisingly good!!

I wrote half this blog 2 months ago and then life happened and I just didn’t get here. So now I have even more to report! My last post discussed how all these changes were coming and now I have implemented them and things are getting better.

Nutrition–this is going to be a lot to talk about, so buckle in. So even though I had changed my eating after seeing Frances at the end of 2014, things still weren’t clicking. What I learned in this meeting is that I am still starving myself, which is why I crave sweets in the afternoon and evenings. This is something that was reiterated in my 2nd meeting with my nutritionist. Every meal I need some form of carb–whether it is sweet potato {yuck} or rice or beans. This is something that Whole 30 was adamantly against, but I have to say that since I have introduced carbs back into my diet on a consistent basis, I do not crave sugar the way I used to. I am still not eating enough of the carbs {I am working on it!!} according to my nutritionist after she read my food journal. Another thing, I need to increase the amount of protein I eat and that my protein needed to be lower in fat. It made me realize I was eating a lot of pork and beef {basically paleo staples} and I needed to eat more turkey and fish. I am not the biggest fan of fish, so I have been consuming shrimp and tuna.

I am sure a braver person would discuss what their fat percentage is but I am not that person. I will say it isn’t as high as I thought it was going to be and I have a goal of losing half of it. I lost 3.5% of it in the past two months–which translates to 10 lbs in body fat loss. How that translates to overall body weight, I don’t know. I asked the nutritionist not to tell me how much I weigh, as I hate knowing that and I am already upset enough about how much I have gained and where I was when all this started. It feels like a slap to the face considering how much I have changed my eating in the past few years. I am hoping I am finally on the right track, it feels like I am on the right track. Clothes are fitting better {or are baggier} and it is nice to feel this way again.

wpid-wp-1434333622476.jpegAirrosti–I saw her three times two months ago. The first visit was plain torturous. She worked on my butt, my lower back and my hip. The pressure she put on my hips felt like a truck was sitting on them. I cursed, I cried, and suffered. I left bruised and with homework–to work on rolling my body 3 times a day and putting a smal ball on the inside of my hip and pressing it in there. The second visit was much the same with more homework given out. The third visit was a good day–me doing the homework made it so that it was my last visit–my back hump was almost gone when she put the same pressure on my hips it did not feel like a truck was on them. I left with homework to do everyday–working on the strength of my core and to roll my entire body everyday, regardless if I do Crossfit. I would like to say I have been the model patient in this area, but that would be a lie. I roll after working out, but not on the days I don’t.

prsPR’s–So I have been inconsistent with crossfit for a while. Since I dropped that barbell on my lower back. It’s been hard getting back and trusting my body, and part of that is an excuse and I own it. I am working on my mental game right now. That being said, I have had some PR’s recently and it’s been encouraging!! I went up 20# on my front squat and 25# on my back squat in April–so now I can do 155# for my front and 165# for my back, and I probably could add 5 to 10 pounds to those. Again, I was nervous, didn’t trust my body and didn’t fully push it. But those were still hard. This past week I did 3 sets of 3 thruster and I got to 85#, which is no joke!! I also have done Fran recently and Diane, and both I could have gone heavier.

Now I want to be consistent. I want to go three times a week and be a little heavier in my weight. And I want to roll everyday. My body is hanging in there, feeling strong, rebounding. It’s time to treat it like that.

Thanks for listening!! I know it’s been a while–I never stopped, I just had a ton of life things get in the way.

Good Week

wpid-img_20150326_201424.jpgOn the heels of admitting that things have been going wrong for a while and that weight has come back, I had a week at crossfit that gave me faith again. I was able to modify the WOD’s to a point where I was still getting my ass handed to me but I wasn’t aggravating any of the wonderful issues in my body. The WOD Monday took me 18 ish minutes to finish and the one yesterday took 28 ish minutes to finish, so not your easy 10 minute WOD. Nope. And there was running. And rowing. And complicated movements like my nemesis the overhead squat. But you know what? That was the best my overhead squat has looked and felt in a long time. Even my coach complimented my squat, saying it had improved vastly over the past 2 months. After all of these blows, the smacks to my confidence in the past year, yesterday was was so refreshing. It was nice to work out hard, feel good after and feeling like I am growing as an athlete.

I also have to say that I had a pretty awesome time this week at Atomic. It’s hard changing boxes. You grow close to the people you sweat with in a crossfit box. A natural camaraderie occurs because afterwards you are like “we survived!!!”. That also means new people to a group sometimes struggle to get to know others who have been close for a while, so finding who my “people” are going to be at the 6pm class has been a bit of a learning curve, and this week things started to fall into place. I now have at least 3 people I have dirty joke to, who hug me when I come in and can sometimes whine to. Thankfully one of the people is my previous coworker David, and we will text during the day about the WOD and strategies. The coaches are also hilarious and I find myself starting to click, which is great because that is part of the incentive of going, is being with the people. And the nice thing is that I am still friends with my people from Pearland Crossfit, so it’s like I have the best of both worlds!

And as you can see from the picture, this week was no joke. And I will keep on going back for more as long as my body will let me.

It is Time

failure-quotes-51So I have alluded to regaining some weight, being injured and other fun things for a while. Well after a recent doctor’s visit {where it is mandatory for you to get weighed}, it turns out I have gained more weight than I care to admit. So I won’t go into full details, but it’s enough that I had a serious wake-up call. I have tried lots of stuff on my own, and I am waiving a white flag bc for a good chunk of the time I eat fairly clean. This white flag is not what you might assume, I am not giving up, because I am not a fucking quitter. I made an appointment with a nutritionist for next week because I am so done with all of this. I got the number from my previous trainer Kat, who has also struggled like I do and she saaaang this woman’s praises. So I go to her Thursday next week and I am really hoping she can help me. I have been religiously writing in my food diary for 2 weeks now, so I will have something to bring her {which I am sure is more than other people bring for their first visit, but I want to get fucking ON this}. It’s hard to admit that things got this far out of control, but it has. And I have been having a lot of treats for a while and not working out as much and it has just snowballed.

I need an eating plan that works if I workout and if I don’t, because I am still seeing people to work on my body.

Which segues nicely to my other topic, which is I am going to go to an airrosti next week as well. My lower back is still giving me grief {I believe from the incident in November} and I need someone to really get into my muscles and work that shit out. Right now I have to modify for that and my knee. And to honest I am just tired of it all. I just want to workout, feel good and be done with it. I don’t like sitting here on a Wednesday, feeling my lower back talk to me and wondering if I should really go to Crossfit tonight or not. I don’t want to further hurt myself, I don’t want to feel like a slacker and I am caught in the middle in my mind.

I think I might just row tonight, get some activity without stressing out my back. And then once I get worked on, then I will figure out the rest. But it sucks.



me n kbsI know I am not a mom or taking care of a huge family, but still, my life has gotten pretty hectic as of late and basically all of February was me instantly reacting to what was happening. And it’s been a month, so if I repeat things from a previous post, I apologize.

1. I got a new job. And this job is different from any other job I have done. I am the pulse of the office I work at, wearing many hats, preparing numerous documents, renewing software, ordering supplies, and more. It was a larger than anticipated adjustment than I was prepared for and the person who was doing my job had already left, so a lot of what I am doing is self-taught. Luckily, the person who did my role previously has been on hand to help answer questions, make sure I do certain things correctly, which has been a godsend. I come hoe exhausted every night because this job is more work than my previous one {where I read Buzzfeed articles for half the day and still managed to look amazingly productive}. I like the stimulation, the learning, etc. I feel challenged. It’s great! It has also meant longer hours, working some weekends to ensure I know what I need to know and that the office didn’t miss a beat.

me n steve2. I had a lot of photography projects in February. I photographed a 2-day crossfit competition that was exhausting but also rewarding as it was a lot of fun to photograph and yielded some wonderful images. I also shot 2 weddings–my first ever! A wedding is like shooting a competition–lots of standing, walking, squatting, only you get fed way better and instead of people making “I pooped my pants!” faces, they are either smiling or making out. That was plenty of pictures to get through. I also did a personal project of photographing a 5 week old baby and his parents. All while meeting with new clients for future projects. I was also participating in a mentorship photography program where I met this amazing photographer named Megan and we critiqued each other’s pictures and inspired each other to do new, fresh things. It was a wonderful experience.

Between these two things I have been sleeping really well every night but I am also finding it hard to plan/prep food and workout. I have 2 jobs. I am busy. Exhausted. Happy!

me n alli3. I went to Canada for the first time in over a year at the end of February. It was so so so so so good to see my family and friends!!! We celebrated my birthday {and my mom’s}. I lived at Kelly’s Bake Shop {legiterally}. I ate off off Whole 30. But is was so great to be able to go back to my home town {I still think of it as home, but I also think of Houston as home}, and be able to step in and see people and not miss a beat. That’s genuine, real friendships right there. It also makes me miss being there so much it hurts if I think about it too much.

So what now? Well! I booked a wedding in February and we just finished doing engagement pictures over the weekend!! And I have a senior shoot this weekend! Plus, I am going to Atomic Crossfit three times a week and trying like hell to get my miles in to finish my challenge (I am 3 behind). I have been getting Robert to help me with grocery shopping, so I am not balls to the wall busy every weekend. I also approached the owner of Atomic about goals and I now have homework! I am to religiously write a food journal {I am sketchy at that, at best} and to start recording my benchmarks on movements and things like running or rowing for specific distances. Oh and I have to measure my belly once a month.

I know I have struggled to write here, but I promise that I am still working hard. I am now at the point where I can start working on fitness goals and being consistent in my food so I can perform well. It feels fucking amazing to be able to say this after all of those injuries last year.

If all my talk about my photography has made you say to yourself “I wonder what that shoot looked like”, my Facebook page is where I post everything. Oh look! I just linked to the page there! Ha ha!

Next: making coconut milk for the first time with Hayley! Writing about what my benchmarks are! Maybe incorporating my photography with this. Could be fun and creative…..


wpid-img_20150203_234542.jpgIt’s only Tuesday and my body is already like WTF. Last night’s workout was madness. Madnessssss!!! There was a 35 minute timecap, and I am proud to report that I got that shit done in just over 33 minutes. I did scale and I walked some of the running bc my heel was starting to talk, but I did it. Eat it WOD!!! So today I am settling into that familiar feeling of after-WOD muscle fatigue pain, but because I voodoo flossed my calves last night, I am feeling limber and not pained in a way that I know means trouble. I have said it before and I will say it again: voodoo floss is a fucking life saver. In 15 minutes my calves feel so much better and my heel that was talking during the WOD is now silent and happy. I love feeling spent but healthy. I feel like I am finally on the right track. It’s seriously exciting!!

wpid-img_20150203_122806.jpgIn other news, I theoretically just finished my 30 days with the Whole 30, but we know I wasn’t religious about it during Shaun’s visit, so I am not really counting it, but I also didn’t get raid-roaded afterwards by my sugar dragon, so that’s a win. But I am not stopping this train either. I am not reincorporating desserts back into my life, it’s a slippery slope and I am not playing russian rulette with my body like that. Plus, I am not craving sugar anymore and I want to keep it like that. So really, I am just going to continue on, eat my 5-6 small meals a day and keep on trucking. I lost 4 inches off my waist in a month!! I am down that dress size I gained! I mean this is exciting. I am back to my smaller size with the carrot of getting even smaller and possibly being able to shop at a regular clothing store. And I like this carrot. I’m in. Let’s do this.

In other news I have had a bad week for my 90 miles in 90 days. I was stupid sore from Monday’s workout and frankly used it as an excuse not to do miles on Tuesday or Wednesday. The good news is that this weekend I am photographing a competition and that means I will be walking a ton of miles. But if it weren’t for that I would be in a tiny bit of trouble. I am aiming to be better next week with a new job and better hours. Here is to being better. I can do it!

Bad Food = World o Pain

wpid-abm_1422201732.jpgShaun’s visit was a massive amount of fun!! Was it compliant to my goals? Ummmmm…no. Let me just be honest about it. I had a little bit of sugar {and freaked out about it}, a little bit of wheat and maybe a glass of wine. And let me tell you, my body fully rejected it all. It was like “Aawwww HELL NO”. And now I am back to my regular eating and my body is back to loving me. Although I am thinking about sugar more. Fucking sugar.

We also got in my miles, as we walked through Walmart, Target and Whole Foods. No real strenuous working out was had, but I still kept to my 30 miles in 30 days goal. So at least there is that. But yesterday I went back to Atomic and got my Crossfit on. And that was legit hard. But I want to work on my conditioning, so I need to show up. I am contemplating signing up for the Crossfit Open as they have a scaled portion, I just worry the scaled portion will still be above my abilities. But it is an excellent motivator to getting my ass to the box, so….I’m still thinking.

wpid-abm_1422414931.jpgI am getting bored with my food, I need to find some new recipes, but I also need to have more time to cook them too. Double edged sword!! And this weekend I am photographing a competition and a sports session, so my “free” time will be minimal this weekend. Thus I am thankful for my friend Mary who runs an awesome paleo meal prep business. Order is in, so all I have to do is focus on dinners next week. My life is a gong show.

So what’s next? Consistency. Working on my conditioning. OH and trying out a new technique for my tight muscles! Thanks chiropractor for the sweet gift! I swear I am using it!! And if this works, expect a blog post! It could change your life TOO!! *ends sales pitch*

Temptation Island

Last week was both good and challenging. I am settling into a nice pattern with my workouts that look like this: Crossfit Monday and Wednesday; Kickboxing Thursday; running or walking everyday but Tuesday, and on the weekends I aim for 2 miles each day. My calves are getting tighter, so I need to stretch them more. The tightness is making running more difficult and I am listening to my body this time instead of getting injured. Other people in my 90 Miles group are doing 2-3 miles every day which is working for them, but with my other activities, and my proneness for injury, I am sticking to one mile a day as my baseline. Thankfully it has gotten ridiculously beautiful out in the last few days, so I have taking walks around the neighborhood and loving it!


I am sure it tasted good, but I don’t want to know how good.

Food-wise I am still to plan but had some unexpected challenges last week and a Friday of cravings that were insane!!So everything started off ok for the week. I made grilled chicken on my new BBQ, it was tasty as f*ck and I made a pot roast that was also wicked delicious. The tough part came on Friday. It was a random event, a coworker gave me one Lindt chocolate ball. Innocent enough, nothing crazy. I sat there at my lunch table and seriously contemplated eating it and then ultimately gave it to someone else. For the rest of the day all I could do was dream about chocolate. I wanted to pour a bath of pure milk chocolate, bathe in it and eat my way out. I am not kidding. I felt on-edge. The thought of chocolate came back to me all afternoon. After work, on my way to my manicure, I stopped at Target and bought a banana and ate it. After the second bite my entire body relaxed and my obsession died down. I was just surprised at how quickly I went from normal to full on craving attack. I am glad there was no chocolate lying around in the break room to tempt me.


The mountain of donuts. NOPE

On the weekend I was at a birthday party where I successfully ate to plan and ignored the very attractive cake and ice cream that was delivered to me. I did not even contemplate eating the sweets, I felt if I had even a tiny bit it would awaken the dragon and I am so fucking tired of my sugar dragon. Today I had more temptation. It was like Temptation Island!! Not only did someone bring in donuts this morning {and I mean a ton}, they also brought in bagels with flavoured cream cheese spreads and enticing cinnamon muffins. I made my coffee, closed the lids to all the items, as they smell amazing, and went about my business. I did not entertain the thought of consuming any part of that card fiesta and for some reason I did not have the same reaction I did on Friday. I joked with one of my coworkers who is also eating clean that we were being tested today and he laughed and felt the same way.


I hate you cinnamon muffins.

I am halfway through my whole 30+, day 15 today! And I had to check before writing that because I have lost count of the days, which I think is a good sign! Tomorrow the Tiger Blood is supposed to arrive and I am looking forward to it! Enough of these cravings and difficult moments! I am ready to embrace all the good things from eating this way!

This weekend my friend Shaun arrives from Canada—I am hoping to navigate through this as healthily and compliant to the Whole 30 as possible. I am sure I will have fun stories to share in a few days about it!