Over Christmas I went through a challenge. I was mentally prepared to eat pie and eat more sweets. I knew it was coming and yet I struggled emotionally with the choices I was making and it made me want to have a healthy relationship with food and I know I don’t know how to do it. This one day illustrated it. I had to fight with myself not to feel guilty about eating a few Hershey Kisses and 1/10th of a piece of pecan pie. It wasn’t like I was going to eat like this everyday and yet I struggled emotionally not to feel bad about myself, not to feel guilty and also not to go home and workout again, just to get it out of my body!!! Believe you me, I thought about it at least ten times!! So how do I deal emotionally with these days, because they aren’t going away!! After looking on psychology websites, the advice varies, but the ones that resonated with me were:
1. “Wrong” is only an idea: This idea discusses how there is no real right or wrong, that circumstances are neutral until the mind labels it. As a person who studied Sociology in university, I can identify with these statements. In the moment, I need to try and recognize the guilt, see that personally and society have labeled eating sweets as unhealthy and “bad” and pull myself from that moment. Instead of giving into the conditioning of society, I need to establish my own rules and think about this after eating the pie.
2. You can learn without feeling guilty: When I am feeling guilty, I need to take myself out of the punishment-mode I tend to slip into. My gut instinct is to workout or limit what I eat the next day to “make up” for what I did the day before. If I can say to myself “Yes I ate pie, yes it wasn’t the best for me but let’s simply move on. I do not need to punish myself for this.” If I do overdo the moment, then I need to simply accept the moment for what it is and learn from it and not punish myself for it.
I think all of this comes down to having a healthy relationship with myself. I don’t want to develop an eating disorder and I do not want to have a bad relationship with food. I feel that because I am so conscious of how I am feeling and reacting, I am going to handle future situations a lot better than someone who binges and purges in these situations.