But with that is another struggle that I go through at this time. And I don’t know why it happens. I stop making smart choices, I start eating crap again. I just need to be aware that this is happening. It’s like I hit a milestone and something inside me says, “you did what you wanted, now let’s forget all this craziness and go back to the way we were”. My will power is weaker. I am hoping by recognizing this pattern I can break it. I just need to pack every meal, plan every eating moment and not allow the binging back in. I can feel it again, wanting to be back.